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Reflecting on 2018

If you read my previous blog post about resolutions then you’d know that I’m not a fan of the “New Year, New You” statement. As I’ve said, “You can’t be all bad, so, don’t leave it all in the previous year. I also like to think that our bad experiences help shape us into the people we are- use them to drive you into that improved version of yourself.“.

I ran across this this on Instagram and immediately loved the idea of the list of questions…

I took some time to think about and write the answers in my journal, AND, as part of my continuous goal to be more open and vulnerable(*), I’m sharing them with you! I hope that these make you think more about your year as a whole picture and help you reflect

  1. What happened this year that I’m grateful for?

    I have a lot to be grateful for this year…

    - Wicked Iron Strength & Conditioning officially launched in the beginning of the year and it’s been an overall rewarding year.

    -I continually have the love and support of my friends and family (something I never take for granted).

    - I’ve been in good health and I’ve stayed injury free.

    -I (finally) PRed my deadlift.

    -We moved to a new, interesting, and amazing place. This move has allowed me the opportunity to travel, explore the world, and experience new cultures.

    - I have been able to work on myself this year and have grown exponentially from this.

    -I’m forever grateful for continued and new friendships and connections.

    -Our marriage is the best it has ever been

  2. What hard things did I overcome this year?

    There were not a lot of hard things this year, but, there were a few extremely hard occurrences…

    -The year started off with good news of our dog, Luke’s, mets decreasing in size after experimental medicine in his osteosarcoma treatment. Unfortunately, shortly after this happy news, the horrible news came back that the mets in his lungs had increased in size and number. This told us that treatment was not working and it was just a matter of time. During the process of moving and driving across the country to New England, Luke was not doing well and started to show signs of decrease. It was extremely hard to see him in pain. One of the hardest things we had to do and one of the most painful things I’ve ever done was have to say goodbye to our sweet boy.

    -Another huge obstacle this year was moving and everything that entailed: telling all of my friends and clients, trying to figure out what would happen with the business, how I could continue to help my clients and not feel like I was abandoning them, leaving my physical/comfortable/stable job and all the people that I spent each day with at training sessions, saying goodbye to our first home together, leaving some of my best friends, and the general unknown of moving to a new place.

  3. What did 2018 teach me?

    -2018 was a big year of growth for me.

    -I’ve learned that I being openly emotional and vulnerable is OK and GOOD (*).

    -I’ve learned that I can overcome extreme hardship and that good things can come from the bad.

    -I’ve realized that I can’t help everyone and I can’t force anyone to change. It’s worth me putting forth effort to help others, but, they have to WANT it and WORK for it too. I shouldn’t let someone else get me down for something that I can’t control.

    -Asking for help is NOT a sign of weakness.

    -I can do what I put my mind to and hard work will pay off. Also, progress and growth takes time!

    -It is extremely important to be selfish sometimes. You really can’t help others unless you are full and happy.

    -I’ve learned to love myself <3

    -It’s not worth pretending or being embarrassed by things- being myself is much happier and fulfilling.

    -I’ve realized that I don’t have to be obsessive with diet and exercise to be successful. Balance, enjoyment of life, and hard work are much more important in the end goal.

    -This world has SO MUCH TO OFFER. I’ve realized I want to see as much of it as possible, try all the new things, and LIVE outside of that “comfortable box”.

  4. Who positively impacted my life this year?

    SO many people have positively impacted my life this year. I can honestly say that I had many positive interactions over the past twelve months. A few people stand out in special ways…

    - Josh (my husband). This man gives me so much and he provides unconditional love. He has supported me in each of my endeavors. He listens to me and offers advice when I need it. He takes me on adventures and happily lets me go on my own. Josh continues to challenge me, help me grow, makes me laugh, gives me a hug when I need it, and starts and ends each day by telling me, “I love you”.

    -My parents have always been the biggest support system. They have helped guide me through life, all the moves, and all the decisions with no hesitation. I owe SO MUCH to both of them.

    -Daria (my sister). This was the first year that she seemed like more of my equal and less like my annoying little sister. This year was huge for us- we have a loving relationship and I’m extremely happy about that. She is another that is a huge supporter. She’s been there for me when I need her and she has made me laugh when I needed it.

    -Amy has been a huge supporter. She supported my decision in separating from her business , Elevated Fitness, as a contractor and starting my own when we found out that we were moving. She has been a resource for me as a professional and is part of the reason that I am who I am as a coach, trainer, and business owner. I have always been able to count on her.

    -TONY! He was (and is) always able to make me smile and/or laugh on my worst days. He' has been a huge mentor as a coach and an athlete. He is always there for me if I need to chat or vent. He is a true friend for life.

    -Bri. What an amazing person to have met. We were instantly comfortable together- my first friend in Hungary! We’ve had such meaningful conversations that have really helped me in transitioning my life here and further understanding and interpreting myself, my emotions, and my actions.

    I can promise you that if you are reading this then there is a very good chance that you positively impacted me this past year as well. I appreciate every single person that I’ve met, got to know, had an interaction with, etc.

  5. How am I different from the person I was in January?

    I’d like to think that I am much more comfortable in my skin.

    -I appreciate truly myself and what my body can do. I can honestly tell myself to “fuck off” if I ever don’t post something because I don’t like the way I look…

    - I’m better at compartmentalizing and dealing with stress. This has also made me a much happier and less stressed person now from the person I was in January. If you don’t believe me just look at my long beautiful nails that I no longer pick away for stress release.

    -I’m more worldly and experienced. I’ve been to more countries and met more people of other nationalities this year than in the rest of my life!

  6. What relationships do I need to strengthen in 2019?

    -I will continue to strengthen my relationship with myself, my husband, my family, and my friends- I feel that these are so important. There is no such thing as TOO STRONG.

    -I would really like to have a better relationship with my in-laws. I love them all and I know that they love me, but, I feel like our relationship is somewhat distant since we' only see and talk to them every so often. I’m going to try to reach out to them more casually and have more conversations.

    -I need to be better about communicating more often with certain people- Lauren/Arik/Adlee (especially this family and my old friends), Laura/Hayato/Hayden, HayLee/Rube/Addy, Venice Fam, and Zack.

    -I also plan to better my connection to some of my distance clients. Better communications and methods in order to improve overall support.

  7. What do I need to stop doing?

    -Stop any negative thoughts about myself, my worth, or my capabilities.

    -Stop wasting time and leaving things to the last minute (procrastinating).

    -Stop playing dumb and pointless games on my phone.

    -Stop spending so much time aimlessly on social media.

    -Stop short changing myself.

    -Stop buying things that I don’t need.

  8. What do I need to start doing?

    -Start upping my productively level- especially with work. Make my presence know, post more, grow my audience and name, and blog more.

    -Create more programs and start doing more seminars.

    -Journal more.

    -Start being more organized in all aspects. Find a place for everything and put things away when done with them.

    -Communicate more about what I’m thinking and/or feeling

    -Finish things that I start

  9. What do I need to keep doing?

    -HAVING FUN!

    -Helping others better themselves.

    -Keep lifting and working on being strong, powerful, and unstoppable.

    -Keep trying new things- even if they’re scary.

    -Continue learning, expanding my thoughts and experiences, and being open to new things.

    -Keep up with nutrition and the aspect of balance.

    -Keep reaching out to old friends.

    -DOING YOU (Me?!). Don’t let others be negative influences.

    -Continue loving myself and being selfish sometimes

    -TRAVELING

    -Giving, volunteering, and being charitable.

Thanks for reading and being part of my 2018 reflection. Let me know if you answer the questions yourself! I’d love to read or hear your answers if you’d like to share! Stay tuned for another future post on my GOALS for 2019 <3

-Meryl

Thanks to @justinsua for the awesome idea…

Thanks to @justinsua for the awesome idea…